at it again

The winter blues are taking hold of me again. I am prone to depression since my early teens, as was my mother and my maternal grandmother. My bouts with depression can strike at any time, but it seems that for the past 7 or 8 years, the cold dreary weather really does provoke very low spirits in me, and the severe early-season dose of flu probably hasn't helped either. I realised yesterday that my increased propensity to take a nap on the couch is a dead giveaway for my depression - I just become totally lethargic, heavy in the head, and fall asleep over whatever I am doing. Tears flow easily and often - this afternoon a group photo from some online friends had me crying for ten minutes, simply because they are so precious to me. And I am having a confidence crisis, and have deleted half of my online gallery at SBB, simply because I believe it was crap (anything with less than 2 comments MUST be crap, eh). I will stop going to online crops again completely soon, because they cause creative paralysis, and I am totally unable to join in the chatroom banter. But don't feel sorry for me. There is nothing you nor I can do about this. It will pass. I will emerge into the sunshine again. There WILL be sunshine again.

"To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heavens." (Ecc. 3:1)